In The End…

 

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Man, a lot has changed since my last post.

I woke up as a single woman last Tuesday.

I woke up as a single woman on Tuesday because my now-ex terminated our relationship.  I woke up as a single woman on Tuesday because my now-ex terminated our relationship after I had forced him in a position to do so.

I woke up as a single woman on Tuesday because my now-ex terminated our relationship after I had forced him in a position to do so, and I did nothing to stop him.

There were three things that were made abundantly clear on Monday night: (1) I was not satisfied with the relationship, (2) he was not satisfied with the way I was treating him and our relationship in response, and (3) love wasn’t enough to keep the sinking ship afloat.

But that’s okay.  That’s okay because it’s life, and love and loss are both a part of life.

Right now, I’m trying to figure what to do with my life.  I bounced from couch to couch for a few days before sucking up my pride and asking if I could stay at my parents’ house.  It’s been an adjustment, an adjustment that has provoked major anxiety within me.  I guess that’s par for the course.  The anxiety is coming from a place of not wanting to move backwards; I’ll be 30 in a week and living with my parents again is not where I thought I’d be.

Phrase of the month (thus far): “Oh well.”

 

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Author: Leila

Just another case of arrested development.

3 thoughts on “In The End…”

  1. Just want to clarify — I like your post, but definitely not your situation. I’m really sorry to hear about your breakup, I know it’s sucky and tough but it does get easier. If it wasn’t working then it was definitely for the best. You’ll be alright.

    Hang in there. 🙂

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  2. I think it was wise to break up. If the relationship is not satisfying for both of you, it’s not going to last in the long term so why waste time with it? You’re in a better place now than you were a while back so I am hoping that this will work out good for you. I know living at home is not ideal, not good, etc. I know what it’s like to have to suck it up and ask for help from someone you don’t really want to ask. A lot of people have to do it…especially when it comes to moving back home. I know several people in their late 30’s and early 40’s that are still at home…or home again. We do what we have to do.

    I hope things are okay with you. I am a little worried that you haven’t posted since then. Come and post and let us know how you are.

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