Despite my best efforts to focus on the good and meaningful things in life, I can’t bring myself to be positive right now.
My grandfather is in the hospital and I’m pretty upset about it. The details don’t matter right now. I’m just glad he’s getting the care he needs.
Things between my parents and I are strained to put it mildly. My father let me know that he doesn’t approve of my lifestyle. Again, I’m paraphrasing. That sentence is the best way to describe a 25 minute one-sided conversation. My mother agrees with him which is doubly painful. I’m tired and I’m left with the realization that my best will never be good enough. My sister once said I was the glue that held the family together. Well, even glue becomes brittle over time, breaking with the application of pressure.
Be a good girl
You’ve gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn’t good enough
To make us proud
Tonight’s song is “Perfect” by Alanis Morissette. It needs no explaining. Goodnight.